Finding Hope: Chapter 6

   Connor never left the hospital, he was in there for three weeks. I went to see him every single day. Every possible minute, thinking his time was almost up.
   He looked good some days, but others he looked like he was near death. It pained me whenever I saw him looking like that.
   One day I found out he wasn't in the hospital anymore. He was back at home living his life again, pretending nothing happened.
   Jane came up to me one day and said, "How's Connor?" I looked at my little sister and said, "He's getting worse, why?"
   She fiddled with her fingers a little, "I don't know, it's just. It breaks my heart to see you like this everyday. You're always looking down and you always look sad. I hate to see you like that,"
   I looked at her with caring eyes, "I'm sorry I've been like that," She shrugged, "It's okay, in Connor's case, cancer is a pretty big deal,"
   I wrapped my arms around my little sister and said, "Jane, you sound so old for your age sometimes," she chuckled a little and said, "Now that, is my goal in life!"
   We laughed for a while and we just sat there hugging each other.
   She pulled away and said, "Connor will be okay, all you need is hope..." And she walked away.
   Hope. That's exactly what I needed! Oh, Jane! Thank you!
   And from that moment on, I felt like I was on top of the world.
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   My mom came in my room one day and said, "Hey Madison, how are you dealing with Connor?"
   "Not good, mom," I replied. She nodded and sat on my bed.
   "You want to talk about it?" she asked.
   I shook my head.
   "Really? You really don't want to talk about it?" she insisted.
   "No, but... I don't know how to deal with it, mom. I want to be with him every possible second until he leaves us... you know?" I said.
   "Yeah, I know. You need to go see him, Madison. He wants you to. I think he thinks the same thing," she said.
   "You think?" I asked.
   "I know."
   I nodded my head and said, "I'll go to see him now, right now."
   "Tell him how you feel, okay?" she said.
   "Yeah, I will."